Seasonal Poetry

The seasons nudge memories,

Reminders of time gone,

Time that should have been,

Seasons now long gone and lost.

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I spring back and another season seems to shine upon me,

Sweet air moisturize my senses,

The extending sun rise seems to be melting memories away.

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The long weekend opens the gateway to fun,

Season too short, the days never longer,

Impatience for sunlight to disappear.

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I fall back and what seems like another year ends,

Crisp air focuses layers upon us,

With excitement we await the first dusting.

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Like a gift we awake to the greatness that makes us unique,

Season too long, days never shorter,

The dark and cold brighten spirits for a new year ahead.

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These seasons will always remind me,

Remind me of intense and wonderful times,

Time that was,

Seasons revolutionised within me.

Choose to Care....

Collide

Do things and events happen for a reason?

Do 2 people meet because of some divine destiny?

Do the peaks and valleys find us because of our mindset?
Do love ones leave us because of a greater plan?

Do we have one life or many?

Do we fall under the guidance of some master coordinator?

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Or are we all here to simply "Collide" into each other?
Or is this all some cruel joke; meant to develop research data for the betterment of a future, more evolved race?

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Not sure what theory explains this crazy life we lead and world we inhabit.

But, really!!! You gotta admit the cruel joke theory has a little merit.

But "Colliding" is an hell of alot more fun and justifiable.

-- Just Saying---

God Bless !

Choose to Care....

Remembering a Friend

Later this month I celebrate my 37th Birthday. Yet the next day I get to remember one of my best friends; I lost 4 years ago. Reagan Williams (RW below the BUDDIES tattoo on my left wrist).

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He would have been 44 this year, he has left behind a list of accomplishments and memoires within his friends, family and colleagues that will be tough to match by anyone within any lifetime.

The last few years leading up to the accident, we didn't see each other that much, due to our work and personal commitments. He lost his father the previous year and was focusing on the family business, his new family and other things, and I was totally enthralled with a major project and my relationship.

4 years ago he called me on my birthday and of course I was tied up; and didn't call him back, it was a few months since I had heard from him and to be honest I was a little pissed at him for not touching base sooner; funny thing is, later I found out he was pissed at me too, for focusing too much on some personal things in my life at that time and totally disregarding many of my close friends.

(Pissed has 2 good friends can be at each other I guess.)

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I didn't call him back that day, and the next day the opportunity to ever speak with him again was taken from both of us.

I have done many silly things in my life and have a few regrets, needless to say I obviously have much regret around losing my friend and anything and everything around this terrible lost....

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This event totally changed me, I realized that in life, balance is everything. Proper balance of time (wherein you are present) with yourself, with your family, with your partner and also with your friends. We tend to get so busy in life, that we think we can't handle it all, we think we need to drop things out of our lives in order to better handle the remaining stuff.

(I.e, we have kids and a relationship, so we step back from our friends or even our family, or we focus so much on ourselves and friends we step back from family, etc, etc, etc). But once we become balanced and aware that we can't be everything to everyone including ourselves, but we NEED to be something to all, then we lose the anxiety and stress that so tightly hugs us and weighs us down.

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Reagan's death also helped me realize that life is short, you truly have no idea when it may be your time to go, whether an accident or cancer, or whatever. So I offer up that we don't allow our lives to be controlled by things and or others that are not aligned with our goals.

Your life is for you to live (Build) and experience and not for others to control and guide for you. If you are not compatible with a friend, a partner, a work colleague and or family member then don't waste precious time on trying to convince them to live life. Yes have them part of your life has stopping points along the road by not as a travel partner.

They will be and things will be, and nothing you can do will change that and visa versa.
Conversely if they are people that are in the same place as you and have the same outlook, then enjoy the company of others. Enjoy the sweet things in life also, never have regret for making a choice that was right at the time, because you will always get the chance to make another right choice.
More importantly just stop making bad choices, Jesus!! lol.

It is amazing how memories are generated from one mind and lifetimes are celebrated by many minds.
Miss you Buddy!

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"We are all travelers in the wilderness of the world, and the best that we can find in our travels is a true friend." - unknown.

CARE PLEASE!

Debating Quotes Episode #01

Quote A;

"To appreciate heaven, it's good for a person to have some fifteen minutes of hell." - unknown
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I would say firstly, to truly appreciate anything you need to have had and lost it, before you can appreciate it.

As for Heaven and Hell, not sure one place is better or worst than the other (never been there), haven't had any feedback from others either ! :-)

Lets see if I can compare or relate to HEAVEN - HELL.
Noted comparisons are researched topics from the internet.

Origin of Heaven: The sky or the area above the earth where Heavenly Bodies are placed.

Origin of Hell: The area below the Earth's surface or Underground.

-- You who know me, know that I am scared of heights in the worst way and also only fly because I must, for work. When I retire I am driving everywhere.

So not sure the placement of Heaven works for me at this time.

--  Never wanted to be an underground miner, I will stick to any form of surface mining. I could probably get my head around becoming a fossil, that seems to be a cool thing, getting found millions of years later and examined. fun, fun...  

This comparison is too close to call, gonna call this one an even split.
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Heaven is Place of: Happiness & Peace

Hell is Place of: Pain & Punishment

Not much of a selling point for Hell on this one, Heaven wins hands down.

Heaven is 1 up!
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Heaven Climate: Warm and Pleasant

Hell Climate: Hot and Dark

The heat is really bad for my skin, dries it out something fierce. With that said, the more vacations I go on, the more I am enjoying the hot climate and dark nights. So depending on how long I have, I may be ready for some basting.

No clear winner on this one. However, the word Pleasant is always followed by a positive treat.
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Heaven's access to: Good humans after their death

Hell's access to: Bad humans after their death

Can't really comment on this, Depends who is the judge at time of entry. If I had to pick my destiny today however, I am thinking I would be stuck in purgatory, they would need to sort through the details and probably try to get outside advice on the verdict. 

To be safe I am packing Nomex coveralls and a flashlight. 
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Heaven's Ruler: God

Hell's Ruler: Satan

Hope I am not the only one, but if there is a ruler, it would be more fitting in Hell, would think God would be more a coordinator of events?

I hope we silly humans are just playing on words for this one. Kinda be a cruel joke to be a little goodie-two-shoes all our days; only to be welcomed by a ruler.

I seem to be climbing earth's corporate ladder and in tough decision type of roles, I do have an A-type personality and fairly demanding of myself and others. If I had to pick a stronger ruler candidate and mentor I may find a more experienced ruler in Hell; Just Saying......

After very little debate and even less thought it seems Heaven has an advantage at the end of the day. 

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Quote B;

If you love something/someone so very much, give it away.

If it comes back to you, it's yours forever.

If it doesn't, it wasn't yours, to begin with."" --- written by ; Who cares?? lol.
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Unsure about this overused and hopefully not overly practiced QUOTE...

Not sure about you?

But anything I've ever loved and let go wasn't by choice (at least my choice anyway).

Hell, I want back great thoughts the minute I lose them, :-).

God forbid anything or anyone of worth.

You know you are screwed when you need to fall back on a terrible Quote like this to comfort the unfortunate decision you made (or had made for you).

Can you imagine the lives ruined / regrets pondered upon; because of this ridiculous quote.

-- I actually had someone say this to me, lol.. and yes she is wishing she would have just stayed around!!! lol...

We'll get to ego discussions later in my blogging life.

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Choose to Care....

Prequalified Advice from a Bachelor

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dbAp5nphTz4&feature=related

Heard this song a few times on XM, however this morning it got me thinking about a platform for a blog.

I am 60 days away from being single 3 years (not counting / considering a few bumps in the road).

Some say I have turned into a professional bachelor. Some say worst!

It is a great debate isn't it; The line between being single and having a relationship. (we'll get back to this)

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I thought I met my soul mate a few years ago (7 years ago now, if we're concerned about details). It lasted 4 years and took me 2 years to get over. Seriously!

It shook me at my core and totally got me off center for a long time. To say the whole experience made me better, worst, smarter, guarded, selfish, kinder, closed, open.... I don't know! To be honest I really don't care to go back to that place of self examination.

If you are there, get the hell out has promptly has physically and mentally possible. It isn't a place to be hanging around waiting for a revelation... lol... it's a place where no friends come to visit (if they can help it)............. Has effortlessly or trying has it is to get there, it is just as hard or easy to get out.

BUT NOTE; ONLY YOU GO THERE AND ONLY YOU GET YOURSELF BACK OUT.

With that said, this experience combined with everything else has made me look at relationships different; it certainly made me acknowledge what I need and want. I certainly don't jump feet first, yet I know that in life relationship play an important part in someone's happiness. (qualifying that it needs to be the right relationship). With a mix of 2 compatible people.

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Now where do we go from here, do we explore compatibility or do we get back to my first open ended phrase (the line between being single and having a relationship). Or do we go elsewhere?

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hummmmmmmmmmmm.. Ok, first we all can agree that we want to be in a great relationship??? Yes, Yes, We all do! Period.

So like a mouth watering dish that everyone tries to copy, we ask what are the ingredients, what's in this?? (Before I proceed, I must qualify these are my thoughts, no research no polling a million people, so don't hate me when I am done and add judging comments, I will simply delete.. hehehe),.....

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Ok, Ingredients from a part time cook, full time eater!

- You both independently need to be balanced people. (Not explaining balanced, you know what I am shooting for here)

- Each need to be content with yourself (PLEASE Don't lie to yourself about this.... super important). If you are not, don't go swimming! Enough people are drowning already don't need you out there flopping around taking up precious pool space. :-).

If you are content, then you should test a potential mate to ensure they are where they need to be, where you need them to be. PLEASE don't get caught up in the word test, as a negative thing. TEST them, it is potentially the rest of your life partnership we are talking about here. TEST AWAY. Don't apologize!

- Know what you are looking for. Traits. You will never find 100% compatibility, but what's wrong with 80 / 90%, you gotta have a base. Conversely, the things that drive you crazy need to be identified as show stoppers. THEY DON"T GO AWAY. You can not change someone. I will repeat, you can not change someone.

- Attraction; If you think you are a 12 and see the other person as a 8, and or visa versa. It won't work. I won't waste time explaining this to you. If you disagree with this, you are screwed and you are on your own.

- From minute one, day one, minimize the lies. (Everyone lies; it's a fact!) Knowing this is power, portraying this is wisdom. You can and have no choice but have a relationship with lies within it. OK? Move on!!!!!

Now we need to gauge our lies, how minor, how major. Stay away from any and all major lies, once you start you can't stop, once you have planted just one major lie, the trust is lost on both sides, even if the truth is not known by one party.

- TRUST - most Important!!!! Whatever you do, form trust early in the relationship and do whatever you can, do whatever you must!!!! to never, ever, ever loose or fracture that trust.

.... GOOD LUCK....

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Think I am getting off track alittle, sounding like a counselor not a blogger... lol

That's enough so called relationship advice from this aka Professional Bachelor.

lol... I can"t bare to place an image in my mind of what you are all thinking..

"OH God, petty the pour girl that crosses his path".. lol....

All in good fun and hopefully happiness sooner rather than later for us all.

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In reading back, I may have drummed up a few more future blogging topics. Opening old wounds in this blogging environment is alittle tough and humbling. I decided to start blogging to get my writing spirit back, and it as to a certain extent done that.

It has also given me an insight into a possible new form of expression and art, to channel and release some haunting thoughts that the ghost busters haven't been able to assist me with.

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I leave you with a quote from H.P. Liddon.

" What we do on some great occasion will probably depend on what we already are; and what we are will be the result of previous years of self-discipline." --- H.P. Liddon


Choose to Care....

Strangers and Steve Jobs

So the week started off similar to how last week ended. A delayed flight and interesting travel stories..
In the mist of this ongoing frustration I finally found time to grab a copy of Steve Jobs' book!
Trick now is finding time to read it!

Your wondering why I am wasting your time with this.

I often say the best part of travel and life in general are the people you encounter!
With that said, The lady at the book store was a "character" to say the least, without prompt she proceeded to tell me about how great the book was and she herself gave a couple copies for Christmas gifts.

The week prior to our chance encounter she followed up by asking her Dad his thoughts on the book? She was surprised when he noted that "he didn't realize Steve was such a prick".
She then followed by explaining how she probed her Mother on the book as well. Yet she wasn't has surprised when her mom noted; "that Steve Jobs reminded her of her Dad".

Yes, I laughed out loud in the store! Not sure what was better, the story or this interesting and out-going lady!
Regardless another encounter with a stranger that was worth every second!



CARE, enough to meet new people whenever possible.

Birthdays

Some say you only have 1 birthday, the day you were born.

Others say 100, just to set a goal. Good one by the way!!

So do we celebrate our birthdays? Do we let them sneak by so we don't have to face the time gone, it represents?

Not sure, each to his / her own I guess.

I personally take my birthday, has a time to reflect on my Mom, appreciate her for bringing me into this world. My Mom had a few bad experiences from the time she had my sister 4 years previous. She lost another child and and other factors in her life at that time.

So all things being equal she wasn't supposed to try to have anymore children let alone give birth again.

So I thank her for me!

For being her typical unwavering, relentless self. Never taking no for an answer, always fighting the tough times head on with a coat of armor. She is a wonderful, beautiful person that has inspired me to be everything I am today.

So when I think of my birthdays; I think of my Mom and give this day each year to her.

Love you Mom



I choose to Care....