Remembering a Friend

Later this month I celebrate my 37th Birthday. Yet the next day I get to remember one of my best friends; I lost 4 years ago. Reagan Williams (RW below the BUDDIES tattoo on my left wrist).

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He would have been 44 this year, he has left behind a list of accomplishments and memoires within his friends, family and colleagues that will be tough to match by anyone within any lifetime.

The last few years leading up to the accident, we didn't see each other that much, due to our work and personal commitments. He lost his father the previous year and was focusing on the family business, his new family and other things, and I was totally enthralled with a major project and my relationship.

4 years ago he called me on my birthday and of course I was tied up; and didn't call him back, it was a few months since I had heard from him and to be honest I was a little pissed at him for not touching base sooner; funny thing is, later I found out he was pissed at me too, for focusing too much on some personal things in my life at that time and totally disregarding many of my close friends.

(Pissed has 2 good friends can be at each other I guess.)

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I didn't call him back that day, and the next day the opportunity to ever speak with him again was taken from both of us.

I have done many silly things in my life and have a few regrets, needless to say I obviously have much regret around losing my friend and anything and everything around this terrible lost....

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This event totally changed me, I realized that in life, balance is everything. Proper balance of time (wherein you are present) with yourself, with your family, with your partner and also with your friends. We tend to get so busy in life, that we think we can't handle it all, we think we need to drop things out of our lives in order to better handle the remaining stuff.

(I.e, we have kids and a relationship, so we step back from our friends or even our family, or we focus so much on ourselves and friends we step back from family, etc, etc, etc). But once we become balanced and aware that we can't be everything to everyone including ourselves, but we NEED to be something to all, then we lose the anxiety and stress that so tightly hugs us and weighs us down.

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Reagan's death also helped me realize that life is short, you truly have no idea when it may be your time to go, whether an accident or cancer, or whatever. So I offer up that we don't allow our lives to be controlled by things and or others that are not aligned with our goals.

Your life is for you to live (Build) and experience and not for others to control and guide for you. If you are not compatible with a friend, a partner, a work colleague and or family member then don't waste precious time on trying to convince them to live life. Yes have them part of your life has stopping points along the road by not as a travel partner.

They will be and things will be, and nothing you can do will change that and visa versa.
Conversely if they are people that are in the same place as you and have the same outlook, then enjoy the company of others. Enjoy the sweet things in life also, never have regret for making a choice that was right at the time, because you will always get the chance to make another right choice.
More importantly just stop making bad choices, Jesus!! lol.

It is amazing how memories are generated from one mind and lifetimes are celebrated by many minds.
Miss you Buddy!

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"We are all travelers in the wilderness of the world, and the best that we can find in our travels is a true friend." - unknown.

CARE PLEASE!